Open your hand, He says in a voice so calm that pinches her heart, like always. She tightens her clenched fist a bit more, for she knows once opened, not only herself but both of them will be left empty-handed once again.
They sit there, in her room beside her writing desk, staring at the laptop screen. So close but so apart that there are worlds between them. Listening to the tick-ticks and the silence, hearts sinking to immeasurable depths.
They are different. She lies. He tells the truth. She saves her world but destroys herself. He destroys his world but saves himself. Always. Yet they sit here, bound together with their weird connection, like nothing ever happened when their world is on fire. Fire? is it dangerous than silence? Of course it is. It destroys? and what does silence do? It kills. Destructed can be rebuilt, but there is no coming back after death.
She opens her fist. Nothing happens. The air still suffocates. Tick-ticks keep on piercing their hearts. and silence? It has already killed them.
I am sorry for your loss. I am sure you are sorry too, for mine. Our losses will look different, from the outside. But trust me, both of us have lost ourselves forever. Forever.
Forever.
17 July 17.
WeLL mY FriEnd Lala Rukh
the Month has Come the
Day is here 6.6.18
and the
Hour
MInute where
i live is 12:33
AM but it’s true
i wasn’t born on
6.6.60 until 11 A.M.
so technically there is
Still so-called Human Made
Time to finish Writing this by
then for a “6 MiLLioN Word Bible
Poem Man” for i’m sure you remember
when i told you when we first met that you
would help me
write
a message
never told before
to the Entire World then..
as sure that’s what we all each
do anyway as Unique Flower Petals
of God Whole as Diversity is God’s Breath ALiVE
LiVE LiFE iN A Way
wHo no one WiLL EVeR
PlaY YoU iN SHoW Or Bible
Yeah.. it’s True my Friend no one will
copy me now as copy rights are not necessary
for a 6 MiLLioN Word Bible Poem completed Since
Shortly after i met you and you encouraged me so much
here for you once said people go and never come back as
i continue to be an exception for that for everyone i’ve known in life
so far
at least
my FriEnd
God’s Speed
And WiLLinG WiTHiN
But it’s True this is a very
lonely allone place with God too
for when you go wHere no one else
has gone the Room is of CourSE Empty
mY FriEnd as we Humans do need friEnds
ALonG the Way and i have met a few including
You for i hold no judgements against any Human
Condition Personally for i’ve ‘enjoyed’ Hell too for
66 Months
beyond what
most folks will
even imagine
exists as Pain
and Numb Now but
True my FriEnd tHeRE
is the other Sides of the
Coins that equally most folks
cannot/will not iMagine as Heaven WiTHiN
Kingdom Come in a Flesh and Blood Human NoW
that is as Real as a Baby’s First Breath and Baby’s last
Blink or an Old Person too.. as BLiNK and BReaTHE ALWaYS NoW..
Sadly.. Most of the World Doesn’t Believe Heaven is Possible now for they
Don’t understand the Deeper Metaphors of Sacred and Holy Texts as this Rings
True still in many of the World’s Sacred and Holy Arts not necessarily in all Bibles
as such fully but yes most certainly in so many Avenues of Art As Heaven will never
Be Science
any more
than the
HuMaN
Flesh and
Blood SPiRiT
oF HeART MiND
And BoDY BaLanCing
SoUL as Paint and Brush
And Painting Whole of Master Peace Painting God Now Whole..
anYWay.. my FriEnd as you kNoW and may feel and sense still i
never
leave
anyone
behind so see you later
Lala Rukh WitH LoVinG eYes..:)
“I am sorry for your loss. I am sure you are sorry too, for mine.
Our losses will look different, from the outside. But trust me,
both of us have lost ourselves forever. Forever.
Forever.”
-Lala Rukh
Forever Always
lasts now lasts
Always Forever
And it’s True it’s not
Hard to understand the
Greek Original Translation of
God’s Love as Human Love Now
as Agape when one walks through
Ashes of forevernow Separated from
the Nature of God Within.. and all that’s left now
iN Return from Ashes of Separation forevernowthen
thennowforever is Unconditional Love for allthatis when
one finally comes to realize deep within that allthatis is God
After all is said and done eternally NoW as LoVE.. it may be that
for Human to truly live incarnate as this Agape Love they must cross
A River of Hell as Separation iN God Nature as all that is now.. eternally
now but it’s now
true once again..
Forever Always
lasts now lasts
Always Forever
And Change is
The GreaTesT
Gift oF aLL for
Change
can
and
will Make
Hell into Heaven
Forever Always
lasts now lasts
Always Forever
N o W
N o W
N o W
It’s True NoW oNe WiLL HoLD
uP A LaNTerN of LoVE ALWaYS
LiT aS AGApE LoVE oF LiGHT
oF aLL that is God NoW When aLL
of Existence as WHoLe and Every
PaRT Becomes Holy and Sacred Full
of Meaning and Purpose as we move
connect and co-create this Holy and Sacred
Full of Meaning and Purpose in all we see and
feel and hear and sense more of all that is.. for it’s
True this Love is one of Merit and not given freely to
one who owns God’s Love Within.. inside outside now
above so below and all around.. to give and Share with the
Rest of Existence as is.. It’s not that God is Jealous or Fear
Mongering or in Need of Praise And Worship it is just that when
Human Loves all that is with all tHeir SPiRiT of HeaRT iN MiND
And BoDY BaLanCinG SouL they Light the Lamp within up that is
God wHOle WiTHIN.. and that takes a practice of Agape Love From
First to Last BLink of Agape Unconditional Love for all now.. a Love that
Never Gives up and a Lamp that also never gives up NoW a LoVE that is ReaL
Forever Always
lasts now lasts
Always Forever
WHeRE aLL is FoRGiVeN NoW
iN A Face of Agape LoVE AGaiN
no matter what or nothing at all now
N o W
N o W
N o W
Forever Always
lasts now lasts
Always Forever
iN HoMe of LoVE ALiVE NoW to Give and Share more..
as this concludes another 6th Day of a Month forevermore now..:)
SMiLes.. it wasn’t today.. 4.6.18..
but on 4.4.18.. i woke up to a Gust
of Wind that blew a Two Heart Engraved
Back of an Outdoor Swing off onto the Ground
at exactly 3:33 AM
And after that
i was inspired
to watch every
Song From A NeWesT
Jesus Christ Superstar
Broad Way Play except for
the Very Last Song that Had
A Cross With A Great Light Rising
Over the Arms of the Cross in the
Place of a Body no Longer Lived with
all that’s Left is Light.. and then i awoke
the next Morning before i viewed that Song
And the Cross as Frame Holding my Bedroom
Window with Sun Shining over A Window Arm to Nature
Green and Lovely in my BackYard Spring As A Measure
iN the Beauty of that 4.4.18 Early Morning Day.. Anyway.. all
That Music and a ‘Holy’ Poetry Prompt and ‘Faith’ Prompt inspired me
then so much more to write my own message and my own style oF Logos
As LoVE As
We aLL
Do iN aS
Our individual
Temples of God
Born from first to last
BLiNK oF LiFE.. it’s True my
FriEnd For with your help as start
As forecast someone from the Middle
East helped me write a story and that
started with you and spread East to India
And many other Countries for a ‘little’ more Help
From New Found Friends.. Many of which now originated
From my Travels First to Lala Rukh’s Blog Starting then in Late
July of 2013.. anyway as my own version my own logos now of a
6 Million Word Bible and Long Form Poem comes to that milestone
oF Logos on 6.6.18 with 9300 Miles of Public Dance in the same 58
Month Effort to Accomplish A Same Covenant with God Personal only to
me as Gratitude for this Great Gift of Life and God who Lives Free within
me now.. it’s True.. i am also coming to the Finish of the 8th MacroVerse of
what will be 9 MacroVerses as “Lenten New Testament 4 FoR LovE” at around
300K Words in a 9 Week Effort at the end of Next Week too for this is concluding
now “April Fred’s Day 2018” as all i am is just a Holy Fool mY FriEnd For God And
For Love
NeVeR
Against
LoVE and
or God NoW
As PLeaSeD
to Be as LiViNG NoW
as i just told another FriEnd
Being A FRiEnD is easy one just Loves
Them no Matter What As The Promise Is LoVECoMEReaLNoW..:)
we both are lost forever and ever.
loved it so far
Well.. i woke up at 6:18 Am.. this Morning on 3.6.18
enjoying the last three whole Numbers of the Golden
Spiral Finger Print of God as PHI Ratio Mean 1.618
wHere of course that decimal place moves Further to
1.618034 as more precise Numbers go so what is the
Number of LoVE.. WiLL iT Flow as A Spiral or will it have jagged
edges now that begin and end at the sides of Human Pages and
Book Covers less.. Essence it is that Feels and Senses and Gives
And Shares EvermorenoW thE God Stuff at Highest Human Potential of
Moving Connecting Co-Creating SPiRiT oF HUMaN HeART aS MiNd and
BoDY BaLanCinG ForcE SoUL EveN MoRE NoW for it’s True i don’t think and feel
and sense.. Lala Rukh.. that i’ve shared a ‘Saturn Song’ with you yet for True iN LiGHT
iT iS one of My Favorites STiLL NoW for the Iron in our Blood Stream as River to HeaRT
oF Ocean LoVE is made from Super Nova Explosions as we do come From Crucible Fire
of Star Death Burst Resurrected we are as Sentient Star duST PLuS uS thAT and wHo Best
oF aLL.. Enjoys a PoTeNTiaL
LiFELonGNoW FeeLinG and
SeNSinG GiVinG SHaRiNG
Fearless Unconditional LoVinG
Force AgaiN WiTHIN FeeLinG And
SenSinG GiVinG And SHaRiNG to: and
From: ALL oTHeRs NoW for you see mY
FriENd whaT WiLL aN aLL Fearlessly GiVinG
UnConditionAlly SHaRinG FRiEnD Do to HeLP
ANoTHeR FRiEND aLoNG iN LiGHT oF A Greater
LoViNG Journey FelT and Sensed WiTHIN aS ReaL..
i’m doing this JusT for tHaT for it is those who are lost
out of sight that we do our best to BRinG BacK iN SiTE
oF LoVE HeaR and See as LoViNG ReaL for as you may
FeeL anD SenSE MoRE by NoW iT iS A Sleep that is awake
in rest thaT and wHo is A Calm God aS eYe WiTHIN Clearly
Defined as Bands of Hurricane LoVE WiNDS CoME to bE
MoRE NoW eVeN ReaL tHan BEFoRE As Nautilus Core
Center BaLanCinG ForCE NoW ReaL too.. Endless
Chambers of Shells OpeNinG uP to and as LoVE
NoW ReaL.. For this Lamp is continuing to:
LiGHT uP From: A ForcE oF LoVE ReaL
NoW Green for iT iS A SPrInG oF
HeArT thaT iS Summer that
never Falls to Winter
end forever for
NoW iS
SPRinG aGaiN
As LoVE BRinGS to
OtHeRS A Rose oF LiViNG
LoVE MoRE NoW FlickeR FlaMe
Torch and Bonfire SpiRinG uP FoR
ALL to see and hear more than with eyes
and ears alone as SoUL CoMeS oNLiNe as
Sentient StaR DusT uS plUS Metaphor unleashed allone
And Released as Quantum Force LoVE Forevermore NoW..
anYWaY… mY FriEnd.. wHat LoVE WiLL Do when real non-assuming
never needing or wanting anything other than to be real as LoVENoW..
Fearless and Free as Garden Tree oF LiFELoVE Roots Spread MoRE NoW too..:)
SMiLes Lala Rukh..
wheRe you LiVE
HeAR at LeAST
it’s still
7.17.17
and
6:01
AM
as i must
guess by the
tilt of the Sun this
is the Morn that is still
coming in.. in such a clean
and rather sterile looking room
mY FriEnd.. with still A Ghost living
of your image as Face pARTly Covered
by a SmART Phone record that still records
your SoUL heAR both in words and visual images
too.. to visit you once a month for i have a memory
with no time.. distance or space for me at least tHeRE
is only now as far as past future and present goes that
never ages my FriEnd and always retains the Youth of Love
within carefree
Fearless
with
nothing
to do better
than give and
share whatever flows
free next effortless as the
Boot Camp of Love continues
as Joy Loves Company more now
even if for only the reality of one allone
with God as the Dance continues now on 2.6.18
as every 6th of every month will retain those last two
digits of this Thousand Years through the year ’18
reminiscent of the Golden Spiral PHI Ratio per
last main three digits after one and decimal
point of 618 now.. Six one Eight as
Six in itself spirals as God as
Nature’s Finger print
from Sub-atomic
Flow beyond
Galaxy
Spirals
and even more..
as then one and then
EiGHT TaLL Standing BeYonD
iNFiNiTY as tHeRE is no space..
distance or time for or and as HuMaN
Generated LoVE NoW Faster than any
measure for the Speed of Life for the colors
of Love cannot be adequately measured and repeated
by any scientific method so far.. as we who experience the
beYond iNFiNitY STyLE oF LoVE continue to co-create this
Love as Real HiGHeR and HiGHeR eVeN MoRE NoW ReaL..
SMiLes ..mY FRiEnd for wHeRe i LiVE A THouSaND YeARS is
AlWaYS iSReaL NoW for in this Place of Love tHeRE is no tiMe
but
beYoND
iNFiNiTY
oF LoVE NoW
ReaL.. sure words
are not adequate to
relate this place but
certain songs do
relate some oF
wHat A
reaLiTY of
the eternal morn within
And sunset one in Beauty
oF LoVE NeVeR EnDinG STiLL
wHeRE A THouSaND YeARs iS JusT
oNE GoD TeaR DroP of LoVE that is ReaL HeAr
other than that i wish and hope you are doing well
as well as all your Loved ones too.. i’m just heaR to
BRinG A MeSSaGE oF LoVE for that is all some of us reAlly do forevernow..:)
12:14 AM 2.6.18..:)
SMiLes.. you kNoW.. i don’t just come here
to comment alone for it is true.. each and every
time i read your poetic words of the spirit
of your heart coming from your soul
i hear and see something else
beyond eyes and
ears of
Being Human
Really Being Human
as you say with no tether
of restraint.. sMiLes as i say
of course with zero fear.. Fearless
is a mighty fine wine with no alcohol
mY FriEnd.. Fearless Opens doors inside
outside above so below and all around of God
as all that is that might other wise never be ‘seen’
or ‘heard’ before.. it seems you’ve lost your muse but
see and hear my friEnd in terms of EternAlly Now that’s
only temporary for without any iLLuSoRY Fears Love has no
word of sorrow and is ever patient eternally now for all that is
other wise ‘heard’ and ‘seen’ as God Forevermorenowmore in
other words every breath every poetic word is beyond infinity as
God alWays Changes and Grows within us too even in the dArkest
Breaths we may neither ‘hear’ or ‘see’ but still God Breathes within mY
FriEnd.. Lala Rukh.. again on the Morning of the 6th in the LA Lower Alabama
Florida Panhandle of Frozen Flowers now after surely what has been a week of
deep freeze now finally thawing a bit but it is true the Flower still warms within yes..
my FriEnd the ever BLooMiNG FLoWeR oF GoD WiTHiN that even colors come greatest
for wilted
roses
that come
back to life
as love again..
you see my friend
for one who has been
to hell.. really really been
to hell on earth one understands
how deep the roots are of a Tree of Life
that is God too and how even in Lamps that
have lost their Bulb there is still a wire left connected
to God just waiting for another Flower of God to Bloom
Again my FriEnd and yes LiGHT uP iN Give and Share AGaiN
as connecting Force of Muse does come again NoW resurrected as
any Phoenix will rise from AsheS AGAiN as my Mother Helen once told
me in Hell.. this will pass too.. fortunately my Mother was smART in a way
that
needed
no school or work
for knowing Faith is
often far from KNoWinG anything
but BeinG Love MoVinG without restraint (fEar)..1.6.18..(pHi)
It’s True My FriEnd this Day only comes once in a thousand years..
As God’s Finger Print lives on forevermore now spiraling as this ratio..:)
7 Years and 11 Days..
Also kNowN NoW as 12.06.17..
Yes.. sort of a water shed day for me at
Least as today completes 2666 Days of
Writing over 12M Words online BrinGinG
Over 130K Photos and other ‘stuff’
With No Break since Thanks Giving
oF 2010..
True Crosses
coMe in all coLors
And AS History sHows
otHeRs come in Words
as all are only abstract constructs
Approximating the Essence of all that is..
Aka God and as you say in your Language.. Allah too…
2017.. Fifty Years since the 6 Day War too as the ‘Orange’
Man plans also today to symbolically give support in Embassy
Way of Supporting
Jerusalem as a
Capital to the
Dismay of
many
folks in the Arab
World as of course
As A Muslim Band is just
Another bit of salt in a wound
away from the Diplomacy that
might even have a chance iN change too to
BRinG Peace one day.. TruE.. hUmaN iN dARK
STiLL Strange.. Both innate and environmentally
charged as some folks enjoy the Havoc they BRinG
uPoN all otHeRs for they are incapable of Feeling Pure
Agape Love for all that holds hands Fearlessly in a Practice
of Life as Love Rather than inStilling Fear and Hate in otHeRs as
tHeir
only Pleasure
in LiFE and sAdly enough
tHeRE is a wHole Lot oF Science
to as to the whys of why this Happens
Both Biologically And Spiritually sAMe too..
in otHeR More FloWeRy Words tHeiR LoVE
Muscle if ever born and or nurtured withers away
if planted at all and or watered and fed and Voila Trumps
more come
in to
the world
or are starved as
Such away from Love
the GreATesT Healing Force
As Gift from God within inside
outside above so below and all around
in another kind of Evolution Orange that rises
instead
of falls
now
to Fear
and Discontent
and Hate even more..
So.. what’s a Person to do.. well
i guess ‘us’ could be like ‘them’ and attempt
to Burn the House of Love Down but it’s True too..
thE True Gift of God or as you say Allah iN LiGHT
is Fearless Agape Love for all of Creation pLus aka GOD
tHaT wHo never
ever
never
Gives up and only
Shares and Gives more..
For A Love tHat LiveS NoW
But of course Love in Hugs
And Kisses from Birth now by
A Mother and Father wHeRe the
Shadow of our Reptile Brain doesn’t
Have to hide either away from a Back Bone
And SensuaLiTy Free too.. Works reAlly Good but
Sadly more and more folks these days Live as Machine
Cognition becomes more of a rule away from the Social
Empathic Love Muscle that hold hands toGeTHeR iN Cooperation
More.. And Lord kNows as some folks become even more Cynical
oF thE TruE iN WhiTe MAGIC LIGHT oF LoVE tHeRE are just ‘plain’
oTHeRs too
who are
so afraid
of tHeir Shadow
Per Back Bone of
Libido too.. they have nothing
left much to move tHeiR heARt
HiGHeR As SpiRit aS A BoDY
MiND BaLanCinG SoUL jUSt PLaiN
OuT
oF
WHack..
As AlWays God
SPeaK Lives Within
inside outside above so
below all around Naked without
the Clothes of Human Culture just
Waiting to be sought and found More..
Sure.. God Taps God’s Fingers iN aLL oF US/Them
Too.. Face Palms come too with Hands without Love..
anYWay.. Nice to see that you are still breathing my FriEnd
A Hi would
have
been
nice but
hey.. no limitations
or expectations heaR
mY FriEnd for i understand
so many ways ‘it’ can and will go too..
Winter has broke in Fall here as Indian December
Summer takes a Break on 12.6.17.. Good Weather For Writing
for the next few days.. iT’s True i Love to Visit Clouds and Shadows too
oF the DiViNE
mY FriEnd
Lala
Rukh
Have a nice day
oF cOURse alWays iN NoW..
verily and surely alWays WitH LoVE..
oH yeaH anD.. iT’s also my Grandfather’s Birthday
That X-Catholic Priest would have been 122.. today..
Every Day A Feast NoW alWays LoVE NoW no matter what a practice goeS oN..:)
Couldn’t read all of this been trying to understand.. good peice. Contact me on Whatsapp
Why?
i Suppose Life should come with A Manual
But truly it doesn’t as we are all different
and
sAMe
Finger
Prints oF aLL right LiGHT
left so.. what thiS means
is now we all must Dance
And Sing our own Unique
Manuals of LiFE and LoVE
iN Hope and Faith if we care
to make our DreAMs.. reAlly
CoME TruE NoW mY FriEnd
Lala Rukh on this 52nd
Month of ViSiTinG
YoU HeAR
anyWay
as ‘they’
say At mY
Church aT LEast
WithiN DancE and
SinG New Words oF
Steps WiTH GoD aLL
NaTuRE NoW Cosmos
unto itself Nature
as God’s
Voice
we
are AliVE
mY friEnd aWaKeNiNG
tHat Voice oF Free Love within MoRE
reNeWeD ANeW FoR NoW.. Meanwhile..
while i talk to my Real FriEnd who in what
some may view as an Imaginary FriEnd now
the inner Voice of God is alWays and has alWAys
Been Impossible to Escape.. sure.. quiet in words
at times.. no words of vocal speak until age 4 either..
but sTiLL the FeeL and SenSE that God liVes wHo
And thAT aS aLL then and NoW too is as real as
thE Touch oF BeYOnd iNFiNITy
oF LoVE
LiViNG
iN
mY LefT
HanD NoW Free..
the Left Hand Loves
and the Right Hand Rules
the Left Hand Frees and the
Right Hand tEnds more to Imprison
A HeaRT SpiRiT oF SoUL MoRE NoW too
And somehow people gaslighted God of Love
to call Left of Love Evil in Hand oF LoVinG LefT
HanD Touch withering away Left Hands of touch and
Love the sAMe as all seeing eYe oF LoVE STiLL NoW..
So.. sure while Right Hand may bring escape from reality
oF Art aS Love in false reason away from rhyme.. tHeRE
iS alWaYs A Left Hand just waiting to come again
resurrected
from
right
Hand
Death
of Love
impriSoNed
MoRE mY FRiEnd..
anyway.. i appreciate
your Love as FriEnd
iMaGiNary or NoT
for it’s true
i WiLL
Love
With Left
Hand no matter
right or wrong my friEnd..
Essence counts aLL Love isReaL within..
Other than that Happy November 6th as
fulfiLLeD Promises Never Die NoW aS ME ReAL..:)
i suppose if life is love
life is resurrected
when heART
beCoMeS
LoVE
aGaiN
iN aRT
i FeeL i SenSe
i KNoW NoThInG
MoRe FoR this my FriENd
Lala Rukh.. from years ago GroWinG
Forevernow Longer if Love doesn’t really exist
For i Feel
For i Sense
For i Do Love Does
it’s true God Doesn’t
Exist as Human without Love
otHeR Than NiGHT is DaY aS DArk beCoMes LiGHT..:)
51 Months i’ve been coming here
only thing that’s left is Love 51 Days
My only Child and only Son Ryan Lived
And he never smiled once in only pain and will to live.. my friend.. so..
it’s not Hard to see the value of hell for anything else is Heaven now..:)
Just waiting for A Smile of a FRiEnD to Do whatever it takes to live as that is what life does
sMiLes or
not
LesSon
LEarned
from
Only
Son.. JusT Live oN BesT oNE CaN WiLL anD iF LovE coMes wELcoMe LoVE as GoDNoW..:)
Remembering still what is was like to visit your blog
Four Years ago as you responded in Love to each and
every comment that came your way in High of Love..
so many words of emotions then so many
words expresSing your
Soul from dArk
thru light
and through
Feelings of Happiness
that at least once you
surmised as beyond
Chocolate Sweetness
in your Life,, Lala Rukh,,
yeah,, it’s the 6th and in a personal tradition
now of coming here that will easily last through
the end of my writing days on earth or if your
Blog disappears no matter what comes next
God Willing as you say in your religion’s words
too.. i am hear ’cause i can and will be heaR in words
of me for now.. shall i stay that’s up to God facing some
potential words of a Brain Tumor that i didn’t take much
care toofor the strange smells of prophecies that come
to some of us when open to all of God’s Power and Force
of Love within in all the essences of feelings and senses
that comes more when totally oPen spirited hearted
souLed and even more.. and on top of that
My Sister and Katrina shared the
same ‘prophecy smell’ in sweet
and kinda sick way with
me yesterday..
so.. no brain
tumor heAR
my FriEnd
only Strange
hUmor and reaLiTy
of God at most when
God WiNks back to those
who serve without fail never
dropping balls and crosses same
of challenge to make love more real
for all concerned as creation now real more..
anyway.. it is those who are sad or numb or full of
pain that one should never give up on most if love
really exists.. otherwise it’s just a word and not much more
than a concrete
statue
of
a
Four Letter
word for as you
once said one time now..
i am a real human and now
all a real human really is is when
bBorn of God as Nature stays is LovE NoW
my friEnd,, all lines come as finisH as stART oF LoVE NOW..:)
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This was just….so…painfully beautiful ! I loved loved loved it ! And I’ve missed seeing you around. Although, I myself have been MIA from blogging world since a while. Hope you are alright. Love, Zee ❤
Hey Zee, I have just been to your blog. Read your last two-part post. Just wanted to let you know that i did because i know you have stopped blogging. It was heart breaking reading such honest raw emotions of yours in the second part, i hope you found that closure you wanted after writing that. I can relate to these two pists of your’s so much that i can’t even beleive it myself. It was like reading my own past story, just with a little bit of re-arrangement of characters. Don’t know what else to say, just good luck and take care of yourself 🙂 You have always been one of my biggest support here. Love you xx
Great piece of writing, dear Lala. Hope you are fine ❤ Pawkisses for a wonderful day 🙂 ❤
Wonderful post.
Where have you been?? Loved this post!
Sound as perfectly matched as Yin and Yang.
Nice writing Lala.
SMiLes my FriEnd Lala Rukh
11:04 PM on 7.17.17 my
time STill.. i arrive
oN iN my
Aeroplane
oF onLine
to once again
visit my FriEnd
i have visited without
fail for every post she
makes since July of 2013..
so why would i Love a Friend
who only provides a vague reflection
in a computer screen of her Face and
Arms on Desk neatly arranged and not
cluttered so much with a mind and
desk like mine.. hehe.. a lot
going on up tHere
and on my Desk
too.. as
surely with
your emotions
and senses too as
you continue a path out now
of daRk to LIFE more as LiGht
from a place wHere perhaps muse
escapes for creativity more than before
and i am pleasantly surprised to see you heaR
this third time since the end of May ’16 as i remember
a milestone of writing a ‘Phi Bible’ then too at 1.618
Million Words that i made you a paRt of as i have
from the stARt of mY Writing Adventure to
expand a Grinch heArt of Before
wiTh SpiRit of SoUL
GroWinG
more
WitH
word size
and steps in tandem
as 47 months now of
Writing on Word Press as
you suggested i change over
to that blogging platform back in
August of 2013.. otherwise i might
have never started writing a Longest
Long Form Poem that now grows a milestone
of 5 Million Words along with 7700 miles of Public
Dance in that Same period of time.. noted now by the
Public Audience at large as folk hero and legend of public
Dance although how crazy is that now as i was more noted
before as dizzy fly uncomfortable in his skin when he walked
around when young as four eyes nerd too last kid picked
on sports teams verbally bullied like many other
outcasts kids too.. who would have guessed i
would stARt an all volunteer effort
of as Dance Legend at
age 53.. or sure
not speaking ’till
4 and named
mumbles after
that too NoW
finishing a longest
Long Form Poem in
13.6 Months span now
too at 1.81 Million words
moving into 7.18.17 as no..
i would not finish a milestone
like that without an opportunity
to include my FriEnd LaLa who
provided so much Unconditional
Loving encouragement when coming
out of literal Hell in the Summer of 2013..
as i remember it like now then like now again..
this week then on a Beach of Navarre where i become
one with Sugar White Sands Emerald Green Gulf swaying
Sea Oats in Breeze as Waves of Ocean wHole God once more allone..
Seagull Spiraling Around Sun Will and Free AgaIN wHOle More GroWinG
the gift
as child
with
God
Free Again.. then
you were and still
are a great inspiration
as muse to keep me then
from going back to dARk..
and by the time you left
i would never go
back to the
dARk
as i did
need a friend for
those six or so months
that you unconditionally came
then and gave to me as friendship
trusted then.. you inspired the lesson
of giving love blindly without seeing the
face from hell on the other side.. so although
i may or may have not seen your real face in my
short time as your Facebook Friend.. it matters not
as your heARt youR spiRiT yOur soUL iN Struggles sTiLL
comes through Loud and Clear in your Words STiLL of PoeTry today..
you helped change my life.. you helped me to become a real life flesh and
blood legend.. you helped inspire me to start writing a Poem that may never be
exceeded by anyone else again in human history.. you were A flicker then of my
Flame that grew into a torch and then a bonfire of St. Elmo more.. You are Lala
Rukh.. you
WiLL alWays
Be MaGic to
me and i STiLL
and WiLL AlWays
Love you no matter
what Happens next
God Willing iN ME as WiLL
of Grace and Strength oF Love..
Thanks STiLL for BeinG A ParT of mY
Life that helped Strike the match of me wHOle..
the only way to pay that back is continuing Love that never ends
and
alWays
BeGins AneW as FriEnd..:)
Lala ❤❤
I hope you’ve been well..
Loved your post.
I liked the difference between the two people.. in destroying their worlds and saving themselves and vice versa.
I love you and your writing so much.