Forever

Open your hand, He says in a voice so calm that pinches her heart, like always. She tightens her clenched fist a bit more, for she knows once opened, not only herself but both of them will be left empty-handed once again.

They sit there, in her room beside her writing desk, staring at the laptop screen. So close but so apart that there are worlds between them. Listening to the tick-ticks and the silence, hearts sinking to immeasurable depths.

They are different. She lies. He tells the truth. She saves her world but destroys herself. He destroys his world but saves himself. Always. Yet they sit here, bound together with their weird connection, like nothing ever happened when their world is on fire. Fire? is it dangerous than silence? Of course it is. It destroys? and what does silence do? It kills. Destructed can be rebuilt, but there is no coming back after death.

She opens her fist. Nothing happens. The air still suffocates. Tick-ticks keep on piercing their hearts. and silence? It has already killed them.

I am sorry for your loss. I am sure you are sorry too, for mine. Our losses will look different, from the outside. But trust me, both of us have lost ourselves forever. Forever.

Forever.

17 July 17.

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23 thoughts on “Forever

  1. WeLL mY FriEnd Lala Rukh
    the Month has Come the
    Day is here 6.6.18
    and the
    Hour
    MInute where
    i live is 12:33
    AM but it’s true
    i wasn’t born on
    6.6.60 until 11 A.M.
    so technically there is
    Still so-called Human Made
    Time to finish Writing this by
    then for a “6 MiLLioN Word Bible
    Poem Man” for i’m sure you remember
    when i told you when we first met that you
    would help me
    write
    a message
    never told before
    to the Entire World then..
    as sure that’s what we all each
    do anyway as Unique Flower Petals
    of God Whole as Diversity is God’s Breath ALiVE

    LiVE LiFE iN A Way
    wHo no one WiLL EVeR
    PlaY YoU iN SHoW Or Bible

    Yeah.. it’s True my Friend no one will
    copy me now as copy rights are not necessary
    for a 6 MiLLioN Word Bible Poem completed Since
    Shortly after i met you and you encouraged me so much
    here for you once said people go and never come back as
    i continue to be an exception for that for everyone i’ve known in life
    so far
    at least
    my FriEnd
    God’s Speed
    And WiLLinG WiTHiN
    But it’s True this is a very
    lonely allone place with God too
    for when you go wHere no one else
    has gone the Room is of CourSE Empty
    mY FriEnd as we Humans do need friEnds
    ALonG the Way and i have met a few including
    You for i hold no judgements against any Human
    Condition Personally for i’ve ‘enjoyed’ Hell too for
    66 Months
    beyond what
    most folks will
    even imagine
    exists as Pain
    and Numb Now but
    True my FriEnd tHeRE
    is the other Sides of the
    Coins that equally most folks
    cannot/will not iMagine as Heaven WiTHiN
    Kingdom Come in a Flesh and Blood Human NoW
    that is as Real as a Baby’s First Breath and Baby’s last
    Blink or an Old Person too.. as BLiNK and BReaTHE ALWaYS NoW..
    Sadly.. Most of the World Doesn’t Believe Heaven is Possible now for they
    Don’t understand the Deeper Metaphors of Sacred and Holy Texts as this Rings
    True still in many of the World’s Sacred and Holy Arts not necessarily in all Bibles
    as such fully but yes most certainly in so many Avenues of Art As Heaven will never
    Be Science
    any more
    than the
    HuMaN
    Flesh and
    Blood SPiRiT
    oF HeART MiND
    And BoDY BaLanCing
    SoUL as Paint and Brush
    And Painting Whole of Master Peace Painting God Now Whole..
    anYWay.. my FriEnd as you kNoW and may feel and sense still i
    never
    leave
    anyone
    behind so see you later
    Lala Rukh WitH LoVinG eYes..:)

  2. “I am sorry for your loss. I am sure you are sorry too, for mine.
    Our losses will look different, from the outside. But trust me,
    both of us have lost ourselves forever. Forever.

    Forever.”

    -Lala Rukh

    Forever Always
    lasts now lasts
    Always Forever
    And it’s True it’s not
    Hard to understand the
    Greek Original Translation of
    God’s Love as Human Love Now
    as Agape when one walks through
    Ashes of forevernow Separated from
    the Nature of God Within.. and all that’s left now
    iN Return from Ashes of Separation forevernowthen
    thennowforever is Unconditional Love for allthatis when
    one finally comes to realize deep within that allthatis is God
    After all is said and done eternally NoW as LoVE.. it may be that
    for Human to truly live incarnate as this Agape Love they must cross
    A River of Hell as Separation iN God Nature as all that is now.. eternally
    now but it’s now
    true once again..
    Forever Always
    lasts now lasts
    Always Forever
    And Change is
    The GreaTesT
    Gift oF aLL for
    Change
    can
    and
    will Make
    Hell into Heaven
    Forever Always
    lasts now lasts
    Always Forever
    N o W
    N o W
    N o W
    It’s True NoW oNe WiLL HoLD
    uP A LaNTerN of LoVE ALWaYS
    LiT aS AGApE LoVE oF LiGHT
    oF aLL that is God NoW When aLL
    of Existence as WHoLe and Every
    PaRT Becomes Holy and Sacred Full
    of Meaning and Purpose as we move
    connect and co-create this Holy and Sacred
    Full of Meaning and Purpose in all we see and
    feel and hear and sense more of all that is.. for it’s
    True this Love is one of Merit and not given freely to
    one who owns God’s Love Within.. inside outside now
    above so below and all around.. to give and Share with the
    Rest of Existence as is.. It’s not that God is Jealous or Fear
    Mongering or in Need of Praise And Worship it is just that when
    Human Loves all that is with all tHeir SPiRiT of HeaRT iN MiND
    And BoDY BaLanCinG SouL they Light the Lamp within up that is
    God wHOle WiTHIN.. and that takes a practice of Agape Love From
    First to Last BLink of Agape Unconditional Love for all now.. a Love that
    Never Gives up and a Lamp that also never gives up NoW a LoVE that is ReaL
    Forever Always
    lasts now lasts
    Always Forever
    WHeRE aLL is FoRGiVeN NoW
    iN A Face of Agape LoVE AGaiN
    no matter what or nothing at all now
    N o W
    N o W
    N o W
    Forever Always
    lasts now lasts
    Always Forever
    iN HoMe of LoVE ALiVE NoW to Give and Share more..
    as this concludes another 6th Day of a Month forevermore now..:)

  3. SMiLes.. it wasn’t today.. 4.6.18..
    but on 4.4.18.. i woke up to a Gust
    of Wind that blew a Two Heart Engraved
    Back of an Outdoor Swing off onto the Ground
    at exactly 3:33 AM
    And after that
    i was inspired
    to watch every
    Song From A NeWesT
    Jesus Christ Superstar
    Broad Way Play except for
    the Very Last Song that Had
    A Cross With A Great Light Rising
    Over the Arms of the Cross in the
    Place of a Body no Longer Lived with
    all that’s Left is Light.. and then i awoke
    the next Morning before i viewed that Song
    And the Cross as Frame Holding my Bedroom
    Window with Sun Shining over A Window Arm to Nature
    Green and Lovely in my BackYard Spring As A Measure
    iN the Beauty of that 4.4.18 Early Morning Day.. Anyway.. all
    That Music and a ‘Holy’ Poetry Prompt and ‘Faith’ Prompt inspired me
    then so much more to write my own message and my own style oF Logos
    As LoVE As
    We aLL
    Do iN aS
    Our individual
    Temples of God
    Born from first to last
    BLiNK oF LiFE.. it’s True my
    FriEnd For with your help as start
    As forecast someone from the Middle
    East helped me write a story and that
    started with you and spread East to India
    And many other Countries for a ‘little’ more Help
    From New Found Friends.. Many of which now originated
    From my Travels First to Lala Rukh’s Blog Starting then in Late
    July of 2013.. anyway as my own version my own logos now of a
    6 Million Word Bible and Long Form Poem comes to that milestone
    oF Logos on 6.6.18 with 9300 Miles of Public Dance in the same 58
    Month Effort to Accomplish A Same Covenant with God Personal only to
    me as Gratitude for this Great Gift of Life and God who Lives Free within
    me now.. it’s True.. i am also coming to the Finish of the 8th MacroVerse of
    what will be 9 MacroVerses as “Lenten New Testament 4 FoR LovE” at around
    300K Words in a 9 Week Effort at the end of Next Week too for this is concluding
    now “April Fred’s Day 2018” as all i am is just a Holy Fool mY FriEnd For God And
    For Love
    NeVeR
    Against
    LoVE and
    or God NoW
    As PLeaSeD
    to Be as LiViNG NoW
    as i just told another FriEnd
    Being A FRiEnD is easy one just Loves
    Them no Matter What As The Promise Is LoVECoMEReaLNoW..:)

  4. Well.. i woke up at 6:18 Am.. this Morning on 3.6.18
    enjoying the last three whole Numbers of the Golden
    Spiral Finger Print of God as PHI Ratio Mean 1.618
    wHere of course that decimal place moves Further to
    1.618034 as more precise Numbers go so what is the
    Number of LoVE.. WiLL iT Flow as A Spiral or will it have jagged
    edges now that begin and end at the sides of Human Pages and
    Book Covers less.. Essence it is that Feels and Senses and Gives
    And Shares EvermorenoW thE God Stuff at Highest Human Potential of
    Moving Connecting Co-Creating SPiRiT oF HUMaN HeART aS MiNd and
    BoDY BaLanCinG ForcE SoUL EveN MoRE NoW for it’s True i don’t think and feel
    and sense.. Lala Rukh.. that i’ve shared a ‘Saturn Song’ with you yet for True iN LiGHT
    iT iS one of My Favorites STiLL NoW for the Iron in our Blood Stream as River to HeaRT
    oF Ocean LoVE is made from Super Nova Explosions as we do come From Crucible Fire
    of Star Death Burst Resurrected we are as Sentient Star duST PLuS uS thAT and wHo Best
    oF aLL.. Enjoys a PoTeNTiaL
    LiFELonGNoW FeeLinG and
    SeNSinG GiVinG SHaRiNG
    Fearless Unconditional LoVinG
    Force AgaiN WiTHIN FeeLinG And
    SenSinG GiVinG And SHaRiNG to: and
    From: ALL oTHeRs NoW for you see mY
    FriENd whaT WiLL aN aLL Fearlessly GiVinG
    UnConditionAlly SHaRinG FRiEnD Do to HeLP
    ANoTHeR FRiEND aLoNG iN LiGHT oF A Greater
    LoViNG Journey FelT and Sensed WiTHIN aS ReaL..
    i’m doing this JusT for tHaT for it is those who are lost
    out of sight that we do our best to BRinG BacK iN SiTE
    oF LoVE HeaR and See as LoViNG ReaL for as you may
    FeeL anD SenSE MoRE by NoW iT iS A Sleep that is awake
    in rest thaT and wHo is A Calm God aS eYe WiTHIN Clearly
    Defined as Bands of Hurricane LoVE WiNDS CoME to bE
    MoRE NoW eVeN ReaL tHan BEFoRE As Nautilus Core
    Center BaLanCinG ForCE NoW ReaL too.. Endless
    Chambers of Shells OpeNinG uP to and as LoVE
    NoW ReaL.. For this Lamp is continuing to:
    LiGHT uP From: A ForcE oF LoVE ReaL
    NoW Green for iT iS A SPrInG oF
    HeArT thaT iS Summer that
    never Falls to Winter
    end forever for
    NoW iS
    SPRinG aGaiN
    As LoVE BRinGS to
    OtHeRS A Rose oF LiViNG
    LoVE MoRE NoW FlickeR FlaMe
    Torch and Bonfire SpiRinG uP FoR
    ALL to see and hear more than with eyes
    and ears alone as SoUL CoMeS oNLiNe as
    Sentient StaR DusT uS plUS Metaphor unleashed allone
    And Released as Quantum Force LoVE Forevermore NoW..
    anYWaY… mY FriEnd.. wHat LoVE WiLL Do when real non-assuming
    never needing or wanting anything other than to be real as LoVENoW..
    Fearless and Free as Garden Tree oF LiFELoVE Roots Spread MoRE NoW too..:)

  5. SMiLes Lala Rukh..
    wheRe you LiVE
    HeAR at LeAST
    it’s still
    7.17.17
    and
    6:01
    AM
    as i must
    guess by the
    tilt of the Sun this
    is the Morn that is still
    coming in.. in such a clean
    and rather sterile looking room
    mY FriEnd.. with still A Ghost living
    of your image as Face pARTly Covered
    by a SmART Phone record that still records
    your SoUL heAR both in words and visual images
    too.. to visit you once a month for i have a memory
    with no time.. distance or space for me at least tHeRE
    is only now as far as past future and present goes that
    never ages my FriEnd and always retains the Youth of Love
    within carefree
    Fearless
    with
    nothing
    to do better
    than give and
    share whatever flows
    free next effortless as the
    Boot Camp of Love continues
    as Joy Loves Company more now
    even if for only the reality of one allone
    with God as the Dance continues now on 2.6.18
    as every 6th of every month will retain those last two
    digits of this Thousand Years through the year ’18
    reminiscent of the Golden Spiral PHI Ratio per
    last main three digits after one and decimal
    point of 618 now.. Six one Eight as
    Six in itself spirals as God as
    Nature’s Finger print
    from Sub-atomic
    Flow beyond
    Galaxy
    Spirals
    and even more..
    as then one and then
    EiGHT TaLL Standing BeYonD
    iNFiNiTY as tHeRE is no space..
    distance or time for or and as HuMaN
    Generated LoVE NoW Faster than any
    measure for the Speed of Life for the colors
    of Love cannot be adequately measured and repeated
    by any scientific method so far.. as we who experience the
    beYond iNFiNitY STyLE oF LoVE continue to co-create this
    Love as Real HiGHeR and HiGHeR eVeN MoRE NoW ReaL..
    SMiLes ..mY FRiEnd for wHeRe i LiVE A THouSaND YeARS is
    AlWaYS iSReaL NoW for in this Place of Love tHeRE is no tiMe
    but
    beYoND
    iNFiNiTY
    oF LoVE NoW
    ReaL.. sure words
    are not adequate to
    relate this place but
    certain songs do
    relate some oF
    wHat A
    reaLiTY of
    the eternal morn within
    And sunset one in Beauty
    oF LoVE NeVeR EnDinG STiLL
    wHeRE A THouSaND YeARs iS JusT
    oNE GoD TeaR DroP of LoVE that is ReaL HeAr
    other than that i wish and hope you are doing well
    as well as all your Loved ones too.. i’m just heaR to
    BRinG A MeSSaGE oF LoVE for that is all some of us reAlly do forevernow..:)

    12:14 AM 2.6.18..:)

  6. SMiLes.. you kNoW.. i don’t just come here
    to comment alone for it is true.. each and every
    time i read your poetic words of the spirit
    of your heart coming from your soul
    i hear and see something else
    beyond eyes and
    ears of
    Being Human
    Really Being Human
    as you say with no tether
    of restraint.. sMiLes as i say
    of course with zero fear.. Fearless
    is a mighty fine wine with no alcohol
    mY FriEnd.. Fearless Opens doors inside
    outside above so below and all around of God
    as all that is that might other wise never be ‘seen’
    or ‘heard’ before.. it seems you’ve lost your muse but
    see and hear my friEnd in terms of EternAlly Now that’s
    only temporary for without any iLLuSoRY Fears Love has no
    word of sorrow and is ever patient eternally now for all that is
    other wise ‘heard’ and ‘seen’ as God Forevermorenowmore in
    other words every breath every poetic word is beyond infinity as
    God alWays Changes and Grows within us too even in the dArkest
    Breaths we may neither ‘hear’ or ‘see’ but still God Breathes within mY
    FriEnd.. Lala Rukh.. again on the Morning of the 6th in the LA Lower Alabama
    Florida Panhandle of Frozen Flowers now after surely what has been a week of
    deep freeze now finally thawing a bit but it is true the Flower still warms within yes..
    my FriEnd the ever BLooMiNG FLoWeR oF GoD WiTHiN that even colors come greatest
    for wilted
    roses
    that come
    back to life
    as love again..
    you see my friend
    for one who has been
    to hell.. really really been
    to hell on earth one understands
    how deep the roots are of a Tree of Life
    that is God too and how even in Lamps that
    have lost their Bulb there is still a wire left connected
    to God just waiting for another Flower of God to Bloom
    Again my FriEnd and yes LiGHT uP iN Give and Share AGaiN
    as connecting Force of Muse does come again NoW resurrected as
    any Phoenix will rise from AsheS AGAiN as my Mother Helen once told
    me in Hell.. this will pass too.. fortunately my Mother was smART in a way
    that
    needed
    no school or work
    for knowing Faith is
    often far from KNoWinG anything
    but BeinG Love MoVinG without restraint (fEar)..1.6.18..(pHi)
    It’s True My FriEnd this Day only comes once in a thousand years..
    As God’s Finger Print lives on forevermore now spiraling as this ratio..:)

  7. 7 Years and 11 Days..
    Also kNowN NoW as 12.06.17..
    Yes.. sort of a water shed day for me at
    Least as today completes 2666 Days of
    Writing over 12M Words online BrinGinG
    Over 130K Photos and other ‘stuff’
    With No Break since Thanks Giving
    oF 2010..
    True Crosses
    coMe in all coLors
    And AS History sHows
    otHeRs come in Words
    as all are only abstract constructs
    Approximating the Essence of all that is..
    Aka God and as you say in your Language.. Allah too…
    2017.. Fifty Years since the 6 Day War too as the ‘Orange’
    Man plans also today to symbolically give support in Embassy
    Way of Supporting
    Jerusalem as a
    Capital to the
    Dismay of
    many
    folks in the Arab
    World as of course
    As A Muslim Band is just
    Another bit of salt in a wound
    away from the Diplomacy that
    might even have a chance iN change too to
    BRinG Peace one day.. TruE.. hUmaN iN dARK
    STiLL Strange.. Both innate and environmentally
    charged as some folks enjoy the Havoc they BRinG
    uPoN all otHeRs for they are incapable of Feeling Pure
    Agape Love for all that holds hands Fearlessly in a Practice
    of Life as Love Rather than inStilling Fear and Hate in otHeRs as
    tHeir
    only Pleasure
    in LiFE and sAdly enough
    tHeRE is a wHole Lot oF Science
    to as to the whys of why this Happens
    Both Biologically And Spiritually sAMe too..
    in otHeR More FloWeRy Words tHeiR LoVE
    Muscle if ever born and or nurtured withers away
    if planted at all and or watered and fed and Voila Trumps
    more come
    in to
    the world
    or are starved as
    Such away from Love
    the GreATesT Healing Force
    As Gift from God within inside
    outside above so below and all around
    in another kind of Evolution Orange that rises
    instead
    of falls
    now
    to Fear
    and Discontent
    and Hate even more..
    So.. what’s a Person to do.. well
    i guess ‘us’ could be like ‘them’ and attempt
    to Burn the House of Love Down but it’s True too..
    thE True Gift of God or as you say Allah iN LiGHT
    is Fearless Agape Love for all of Creation pLus aka GOD
    tHaT wHo never
    ever
    never
    Gives up and only
    Shares and Gives more..
    For A Love tHat LiveS NoW
    But of course Love in Hugs
    And Kisses from Birth now by
    A Mother and Father wHeRe the
    Shadow of our Reptile Brain doesn’t
    Have to hide either away from a Back Bone
    And SensuaLiTy Free too.. Works reAlly Good but
    Sadly more and more folks these days Live as Machine
    Cognition becomes more of a rule away from the Social
    Empathic Love Muscle that hold hands toGeTHeR iN Cooperation
    More.. And Lord kNows as some folks become even more Cynical
    oF thE TruE iN WhiTe MAGIC LIGHT oF LoVE tHeRE are just ‘plain’
    oTHeRs too
    who are
    so afraid
    of tHeir Shadow
    Per Back Bone of
    Libido too.. they have nothing
    left much to move tHeiR heARt
    HiGHeR As SpiRit aS A BoDY
    MiND BaLanCinG SoUL jUSt PLaiN
    OuT
    oF
    WHack..
    As AlWays God
    SPeaK Lives Within
    inside outside above so
    below all around Naked without
    the Clothes of Human Culture just
    Waiting to be sought and found More..
    Sure.. God Taps God’s Fingers iN aLL oF US/Them
    Too.. Face Palms come too with Hands without Love..
    anYWay.. Nice to see that you are still breathing my FriEnd
    A Hi would
    have
    been
    nice but
    hey.. no limitations
    or expectations heaR
    mY FriEnd for i understand
    so many ways ‘it’ can and will go too..
    Winter has broke in Fall here as Indian December
    Summer takes a Break on 12.6.17.. Good Weather For Writing
    for the next few days.. iT’s True i Love to Visit Clouds and Shadows too
    oF the DiViNE
    mY FriEnd
    Lala
    Rukh
    Have a nice day
    oF cOURse alWays iN NoW..
    verily and surely alWays WitH LoVE..
    oH yeaH anD.. iT’s also my Grandfather’s Birthday
    That X-Catholic Priest would have been 122.. today..
    Every Day A Feast NoW alWays LoVE NoW no matter what a practice goeS oN..:)

  8. i Suppose Life should come with A Manual
    But truly it doesn’t as we are all different
    and
    sAMe
    Finger
    Prints oF aLL right LiGHT
    left so.. what thiS means
    is now we all must Dance
    And Sing our own Unique
    Manuals of LiFE and LoVE
    iN Hope and Faith if we care
    to make our DreAMs.. reAlly
    CoME TruE NoW mY FriEnd
    Lala Rukh on this 52nd
    Month of ViSiTinG
    YoU HeAR
    anyWay
    as ‘they’
    say At mY
    Church aT LEast
    WithiN DancE and
    SinG New Words oF
    Steps WiTH GoD aLL
    NaTuRE NoW Cosmos
    unto itself Nature
    as God’s
    Voice
    we
    are AliVE
    mY friEnd aWaKeNiNG
    tHat Voice oF Free Love within MoRE
    reNeWeD ANeW FoR NoW.. Meanwhile..
    while i talk to my Real FriEnd who in what
    some may view as an Imaginary FriEnd now
    the inner Voice of God is alWays and has alWAys
    Been Impossible to Escape.. sure.. quiet in words
    at times.. no words of vocal speak until age 4 either..
    but sTiLL the FeeL and SenSE that God liVes wHo
    And thAT aS aLL then and NoW too is as real as
    thE Touch oF BeYOnd iNFiNITy
    oF LoVE
    LiViNG
    iN
    mY LefT
    HanD NoW Free..
    the Left Hand Loves
    and the Right Hand Rules
    the Left Hand Frees and the
    Right Hand tEnds more to Imprison
    A HeaRT SpiRiT oF SoUL MoRE NoW too
    And somehow people gaslighted God of Love
    to call Left of Love Evil in Hand oF LoVinG LefT
    HanD Touch withering away Left Hands of touch and
    Love the sAMe as all seeing eYe oF LoVE STiLL NoW..
    So.. sure while Right Hand may bring escape from reality
    oF Art aS Love in false reason away from rhyme.. tHeRE
    iS alWaYs A Left Hand just waiting to come again
    resurrected
    from
    right
    Hand
    Death
    of Love
    impriSoNed
    MoRE mY FRiEnd..
    anyway.. i appreciate
    your Love as FriEnd
    iMaGiNary or NoT
    for it’s true
    i WiLL
    Love
    With Left
    Hand no matter
    right or wrong my friEnd..
    Essence counts aLL Love isReaL within..
    Other than that Happy November 6th as
    fulfiLLeD Promises Never Die NoW aS ME ReAL..:)

  9. i suppose if life is love
    life is resurrected
    when heART
    beCoMeS
    LoVE
    aGaiN
    iN aRT
    i FeeL i SenSe
    i KNoW NoThInG
    MoRe FoR this my FriENd
    Lala Rukh.. from years ago GroWinG
    Forevernow Longer if Love doesn’t really exist
    For i Feel
    For i Sense
    For i Do Love Does
    it’s true God Doesn’t
    Exist as Human without Love
    otHeR Than NiGHT is DaY aS DArk beCoMes LiGHT..:)

    51 Months i’ve been coming here
    only thing that’s left is Love 51 Days
    My only Child and only Son Ryan Lived
    And he never smiled once in only pain and will to live.. my friend.. so..
    it’s not Hard to see the value of hell for anything else is Heaven now..:)

    Just waiting for A Smile of a FRiEnD to Do whatever it takes to live as that is what life does
    sMiLes or
    not
    LesSon
    LEarned
    from
    Only
    Son.. JusT Live oN BesT oNE CaN WiLL anD iF LovE coMes wELcoMe LoVE as GoDNoW..:)

  10. Remembering still what is was like to visit your blog
    Four Years ago as you responded in Love to each and
    every comment that came your way in High of Love..
    so many words of emotions then so many
    words expresSing your
    Soul from dArk
    thru light
    and through
    Feelings of Happiness
    that at least once you
    surmised as beyond
    Chocolate Sweetness
    in your Life,, Lala Rukh,,
    yeah,, it’s the 6th and in a personal tradition
    now of coming here that will easily last through
    the end of my writing days on earth or if your
    Blog disappears no matter what comes next
    God Willing as you say in your religion’s words
    too.. i am hear ’cause i can and will be heaR in words
    of me for now.. shall i stay that’s up to God facing some
    potential words of a Brain Tumor that i didn’t take much
    care toofor the strange smells of prophecies that come
    to some of us when open to all of God’s Power and Force
    of Love within in all the essences of feelings and senses
    that comes more when totally oPen spirited hearted
    souLed and even more.. and on top of that
    My Sister and Katrina shared the
    same ‘prophecy smell’ in sweet
    and kinda sick way with
    me yesterday..
    so.. no brain
    tumor heAR
    my FriEnd
    only Strange
    hUmor and reaLiTy
    of God at most when
    God WiNks back to those
    who serve without fail never
    dropping balls and crosses same
    of challenge to make love more real
    for all concerned as creation now real more..
    anyway.. it is those who are sad or numb or full of
    pain that one should never give up on most if love
    really exists.. otherwise it’s just a word and not much more
    than a concrete
    statue
    of
    a
    Four Letter
    word for as you
    once said one time now..
    i am a real human and now
    all a real human really is is when
    bBorn of God as Nature stays is LovE NoW
    my friEnd,, all lines come as finisH as stART oF LoVE NOW..:)

  11. I love the way your write , it’s connects with my heart . I feel like you are giving voice to my thought. I would i love to talk to u if u feel appropriate . Follow me on Insta! … samay9999

  12. This was just….so…painfully beautiful ! I loved loved loved it ! And I’ve missed seeing you around. Although, I myself have been MIA from blogging world since a while. Hope you are alright. Love, Zee ❤

    • Hey Zee, I have just been to your blog. Read your last two-part post. Just wanted to let you know that i did because i know you have stopped blogging. It was heart breaking reading such honest raw emotions of yours in the second part, i hope you found that closure you wanted after writing that. I can relate to these two pists of your’s so much that i can’t even beleive it myself. It was like reading my own past story, just with a little bit of re-arrangement of characters. Don’t know what else to say, just good luck and take care of yourself 🙂 You have always been one of my biggest support here. Love you xx

  13. SMiLes my FriEnd Lala Rukh
    11:04 PM on 7.17.17 my
    time STill.. i arrive
    oN iN my
    Aeroplane
    oF onLine
    to once again
    visit my FriEnd
    i have visited without
    fail for every post she
    makes since July of 2013..
    so why would i Love a Friend
    who only provides a vague reflection
    in a computer screen of her Face and
    Arms on Desk neatly arranged and not
    cluttered so much with a mind and
    desk like mine.. hehe.. a lot
    going on up tHere
    and on my Desk
    too.. as
    surely with
    your emotions
    and senses too as
    you continue a path out now
    of daRk to LIFE more as LiGht
    from a place wHere perhaps muse
    escapes for creativity more than before
    and i am pleasantly surprised to see you heaR
    this third time since the end of May ’16 as i remember
    a milestone of writing a ‘Phi Bible’ then too at 1.618
    Million Words that i made you a paRt of as i have
    from the stARt of mY Writing Adventure to
    expand a Grinch heArt of Before
    wiTh SpiRit of SoUL
    GroWinG
    more
    WitH
    word size
    and steps in tandem
    as 47 months now of
    Writing on Word Press as
    you suggested i change over
    to that blogging platform back in
    August of 2013.. otherwise i might
    have never started writing a Longest
    Long Form Poem that now grows a milestone
    of 5 Million Words along with 7700 miles of Public
    Dance in that Same period of time.. noted now by the
    Public Audience at large as folk hero and legend of public
    Dance although how crazy is that now as i was more noted
    before as dizzy fly uncomfortable in his skin when he walked
    around when young as four eyes nerd too last kid picked
    on sports teams verbally bullied like many other
    outcasts kids too.. who would have guessed i
    would stARt an all volunteer effort
    of as Dance Legend at
    age 53.. or sure
    not speaking ’till
    4 and named
    mumbles after
    that too NoW
    finishing a longest
    Long Form Poem in
    13.6 Months span now
    too at 1.81 Million words
    moving into 7.18.17 as no..
    i would not finish a milestone
    like that without an opportunity
    to include my FriEnd LaLa who
    provided so much Unconditional
    Loving encouragement when coming
    out of literal Hell in the Summer of 2013..
    as i remember it like now then like now again..
    this week then on a Beach of Navarre where i become
    one with Sugar White Sands Emerald Green Gulf swaying
    Sea Oats in Breeze as Waves of Ocean wHole God once more allone..
    Seagull Spiraling Around Sun Will and Free AgaIN wHOle More GroWinG
    the gift
    as child
    with
    God
    Free Again.. then
    you were and still
    are a great inspiration
    as muse to keep me then
    from going back to dARk..
    and by the time you left
    i would never go
    back to the
    dARk
    as i did
    need a friend for
    those six or so months
    that you unconditionally came
    then and gave to me as friendship
    trusted then.. you inspired the lesson
    of giving love blindly without seeing the
    face from hell on the other side.. so although
    i may or may have not seen your real face in my
    short time as your Facebook Friend.. it matters not
    as your heARt youR spiRiT yOur soUL iN Struggles sTiLL
    comes through Loud and Clear in your Words STiLL of PoeTry today..
    you helped change my life.. you helped me to become a real life flesh and
    blood legend.. you helped inspire me to start writing a Poem that may never be
    exceeded by anyone else again in human history.. you were A flicker then of my
    Flame that grew into a torch and then a bonfire of St. Elmo more.. You are Lala
    Rukh.. you
    WiLL alWays
    Be MaGic to
    me and i STiLL
    and WiLL AlWays
    Love you no matter
    what Happens next
    God Willing iN ME as WiLL
    of Grace and Strength oF Love..
    Thanks STiLL for BeinG A ParT of mY
    Life that helped Strike the match of me wHOle..
    the only way to pay that back is continuing Love that never ends
    and
    alWays
    BeGins AneW as FriEnd..:)

  14. Lala ❤❤
    I hope you’ve been well..
    Loved your post.
    I liked the difference between the two people.. in destroying their worlds and saving themselves and vice versa.

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